In the last few months, much has happened that has made clear to me that I need to focus on being a composer. I can’t only do engineering. I’m certainly still recording, producing, and spending plenty of time in the studio (and plan to keep doing so because I still love it and need to record my compositions), but I’ve realized that, first and foremost, I’m a composer.
In the wake of an exhausting freshman year, unfortunately, until a few weeks ago, I had been struggling tremendously to compose anything at all. It wasn’t that I didn’t try—I tried harder than I knew I could. But the music wouldn’t come. I hated almost everything I did manage to write. On some level, I even began to hate composing itself because it took so much effort to even write things I didn’t like.
“Music students: as the semester grinds on you may feel intensely burnt-out. You may even consider dropping out of music altogether. If that happens, go back and listen to your favorite recordings, make music with your friends, do anything you can to remind yourself why you loved music before you started studying it. An education in music can be a very good thing, but it can also squeeze the life out of any love you ever had for it. Don’t let it.”
Recently, I came across this quote by Eric Whitacre from his blog, via Facebook. The timing couldn’t have been better.
It’s official… I’ve begun working on my second piano album! I plan to record most of it over the course of this summer, and I expect to release it in early spring of 2015—perhaps sooner or later depending on how many other projects I’m doing. I’m hoping to make it longer than Airborne—hopefully around 40 or 45 minutes. As of right now, I’ve completed two compositions with another almost done, bringing me to around twenty minutes of music.
I was hoping to come home from college with enough material completed to record another album right away. And I wanted to be more active on my blog throughout the past year, release singles, produce other artists, and play more gigs, but life happened…Continue reading “Why My Next Album Can’t Live up to the Past”→
I realize I haven’t written in awhile, but this last month has been an incredible month of first times…
1) The first time I performed one of my own compositions in a concert hall.
I performed my piano piece “Equinox” in the McAfee Concert Hall as part of the Student Composers Recital. As far as I know, I was the only freshman composer who participated. It was wonderful to hear the sound of my piece performed in such a wonderful venue. And it was such an thrill to be featured among so many other talented artists at this school! Continue reading “A Month of Firsts”→
These past three months in Nashville have been a whirlwind of a semester. While this semester started off rough, I’ve finished it having done things I never dreamed I’d be doing so soon. But it was a tough start…
When I went home for fall break in October, friends would ask me, “How is your first semester of college so far?”
It’s amazing how much can change in a few weeks’ time… I’ve moved to Nashville and started college.
Up to this point, my posts had running through them the consistent theme of being a teenager and trying to figure out how to make good recordings and compositions on my own—and often getting in over my head with my undertakings. However, now I have the ability to learn from some of the best of the best; I’m not on my own anymore. But I don’t know what that will mean for this blog. For that matter, I’m still figuring out what that means for me. Continue reading “The Next Step”→
In a community college recital hall last Wednesday, I had one of my most incredible, moving, and unusual performances so far.After four years of being the underaged face of the Music Department, it was my final public appearance. In a wild ride of a recital, I debuted my two most recent piano compositions, “Equinox” and “Precipice.”
I find that when I perform, I always play my pieces better and with more expression than I do at home, because I’m so in-the-moment. Does that ever happen to you?
It’s great to be back! So much has happened this month. I’m in shock right now.
Firstly, those crazy music school auditions are over. They went well, as far as I can tell, but I still don’t know for sure if I got in. We’ll see in a couple more weeks, I hope.
But that brings me to my main piece of news–I didn’t audition as any kind of composition major like I had thought I would. I’ve changed my mind again, and now I’m a music minor majoring in Audio Engineering.
Wow. Just, wow. I know I haven’t posted anything in a couple weeks, but I’ve been insanely busy mixing and mastering My Heart Beats and rehearsing for the release party. So now, the album is finally out, and Lily and I performed to a packed house last night at the launch party. It was incredible. It was one of the best nights of my life.