When people ask me, “What do you want to do for a career?” and I tell them that I’m a music producer and composer, they always look at me like I don’t know what I’m talking about.  They always seem to be thinking “That’s nice, but don’t you want to eat?” and they often ask about my “backup plan.”  But the way I see it, if I don’t go all out, I’m definitely not going to make it.  I work as hard as I can and dare myself to fail harder.  If I had a backup plan, I would already be admitting my failure.  I know that God has called me to music as a career, and to not believe it will work out is to say that I don’t trust God.

But my dreams are more than just a distant hope to me–they are constantly before me every single day as I spend hours and hours perfecting my craft.  This faith that I have in what God has called me to do is the reason why I make myself sit down at the piano and perfect a passage when I’d rather be hanging out with my friends.  It is the reason why I gave up a “normal” public education for homeschool and community college so I could put in enough hours on music.  This faith in God is how I faced a painful and supposedly “permanent” injury for three years, which would’ve been a good enough reason to quit, and yet I still didn’t give up.

To me, it’s not a question of if my career path will work out–it’s only a question of whenI believe in long, hard work, and I don’t feel entitled to anything without working for it.  I don’t expect someone to “discover” me one day without me putting in any effort.  I expect to work hard and create opportunities for myself.  Why should I expect to get anything more than what I have, if I haven’t made the most of what has already been given to me?  If I don’t work now, with what I have, why should anyone think I will start working once I get more?  No, first you have to prove yourself with a little, and then you can be trusted with more.  So right now, I’m creating the best songs I can with the training I’ve had, and I’m making the best productions I can in the tiny studio in my parent’s basement.  Then, one day when I’ve learned more, and when I’m working in someone’s “state-of-the-art studio,” I will be ready for the work that is required.

I already am a producer and composer–I’m not waiting until the future to get started.  Why wait when I know that this is what God has called me to do?  And why have a backup plan when I already live my first plan?  You take risks in life whether you want to or not, so I live my life as one big leap of faith towards my dreams.